Undivided Attention

She calls me on the phone and as always is distracted by other things she is doing. Not giving her my attention when she talks used to be one of her complaints of me. Usually she's at home with the kids and the only time she clears for the conversation is when she is talking. Nothing I say anymore is worth her time. She is always distracted or just plainly doesn't care about what I want to talk about. But I have to continuously hear her complain about work, friends, family, the kids, the temperature, herself (aches and pains), me, the house. The majority of the time she opens her mouth it's to make a negative comment. I gave up friendships in the past for that reason alone. I like to take a positive attitude towards everything. I think alot has to do with what I have already been through, knowing there are bigger issues in this world to be upset about that it's 68 degrees in the house and it's too hot. It's not worth the waste of breath and it does help you or the person that hears it.

So on the phone in the middle of me talking she says "Ohh shit" I think she hit someone or forgot to do something important. Nope ran over some little thing in the road, didn't pop a tire, didn't fly up and hit the car. So after that interuption is over she starts talking, not being distracted, and finishes what she wanted to say. I start talking and again, "What are you doing" interupts my talking. I could tell if she was mad at me or what. No wrong again she was not paying attention to me and was talking to a car, A CAR, in front of her. Frustrated with the conversation I had nothing else to say. Her responce was rude and uncalled for. "What's your problem?" (with that tone we all know so well). After a moment of silence she said, "Now your being mean and I expect that from you."

What is that? I don''t deserve that kind of attitude. Anyone someone is married to doesn't deserve it. So I hung up. (Which is her calling card) For someone that says they want the relationship to work she does an awful lot of things to hamper it.

Then at home I had painted my daughter's wall. On my way to the basement to pay bills I told her that the daughter's bed was away from the wall and would need to be pushed back before she was to get in it. (Just out of courtesy because she may not have notice and I didn't want my daughter to get hurt falling behind the bed) Her responce (in that same tone I mentioned earlier) "So your not going to help me put the girls to bed?" Did I say that? No, I didn't think so. She "reads" into everything I say and that only gets worse everyday. It started when she started working at the Mental health floor at the hospital. She Acts as if i am a patient on her floor and she can ready into me. Little does she know I wear it on me sleave. You don't need to read me. It's out there for everyone to see.

When she leaves work she needs to stop being the nurse and be a mom, a wife and a friend.